I'm 17 years old

I had been taught by legalism way.
I admit that I'm a bad boy.
If there is little fault that I did.
My mother gave me, about 25 Newton Force as a gift.
In my childhood, I already have my ego.
I抦 always thought that what I did was right.
If I am being scolded by my mother I protect myself,
I did not want to lose to anyone.

Now I'm 17 years old. My mother does not use force anymore,
But she uses her mouth, not biting but mumbling.
This puts a little pressure on me.
Just need to be patient son.
But I'm lucky because my mother can still talk and walk.
Maybe I抦 not as strong as my elder brothers.
In the macho face of me, I'm sensitive and shy.
But in school, I'm pretending to be a bad and harsh man.
Inside of me, I want to break the entire rule.
But this will humiliate my family.
I抦 always think, what kind of parent that not teaching their child well.
Their child comes to school as a bad mankind.
The world is unpredictable.
Argh, I get stuck when writing in English. To improve my English
I'm trying and trying I hope it is worth it.