I'm 17 years old

I had been taught by legalism way.
I admit that I'm a bad boy.
If there is little fault that I did.
My mother gave me, about 25 Newton Force as a gift.
In my childhood, I already have my ego.
I抦 always thought that what I did was right.
If I am being scolded by my mother I protect myself,
I did not want to lose to anyone.

Now I'm 17 years old. My mother does not use force anymore,
But she uses her mouth, not biting but mumbling.
This puts a little pressure on me.
Just need to be patient son.
But I'm lucky because my mother can still talk and walk.
Maybe I抦 not as strong as my elder brothers.
In the macho face of me, I'm sensitive and shy.
But in school, I'm pretending to be a bad and harsh man.
Inside of me, I want to break the entire rule.
But this will humiliate my family.
I抦 always think, what kind of parent that not teaching their child well.
Their child comes to school as a bad mankind.
The world is unpredictable.
Argh, I get stuck when writing in English. To improve my English
I'm trying and trying I hope it is worth it.

MS0

hampir detik menanti mati.
aku seperti tidak mampu berdiri.
aku bukan seperti dulu lagi.
anganku tiada lagi..

inginku juga mati..
tak ingin berharap lagi.
kau mengajar aku sesuatu..
jangan pernah untuk bermimpi.

aku tak sekuat dia.
dia masih bertahan.
walau tujuan kami sama.
aku masih lagi mentah.
sabar bukan sikapku.

bintang dan bulan datang lagi.
tapi aku tak pasti.
sampai bila ia akan ada di sisi.
hidupku pasti sendiri lagi.

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aku akan terus berdiri.
walau kaki melepuh lagi.
aku terus merempuh.
walau dalam apa situasi.